Motherhood. Mother's Day is past but time spent reflecting on it is not lost completely. For friends in my stage of life, or age, I suppose, the day seems to be met by either a big sense of accomplishment and joy or a deep sense of longing and grief. But I want them all to be aware that motherhood comes in all sorts of forms and phases and all women should be able to feel that they contribute to the world important mothering qualities and are celebrated on that day no matter what their state of fertility or number of children at home.
My current state of motherhood has somehow taken over my life at the moment and I find when I have moments to myself, I waste them away instead of honing in on taking time to share or improve my creativity. But I want to change that. I want to keep writing and taking photos.
Malaika is two years old already and counting. Every day brings new things learned and shared, laughed or cried about. She is a wonder and she is exhausting. I hope I am doing a good job of being her mother. Some days I feel on top of the world and some days I worry I need to be better. But everyday is a gift. And she will so soon be a big girl...
And, yes, a little cherub is growing in my womb as well. The first trimester was more difficult this time around, tired and nauseous and eating almost constantly. I am so happy to be through it and hoping that it means this one is a keeper. I am starting to feel its movements and that is a nice reminder of its existence, besides my thickening waste line (thicker than ever before because of all the food I ate to keep the sick feeling away as much as possible). I am starting to think about how to try to help make this late October or early November birth experience better than the last if I can!
Peru is a welcome challenge. And perhaps because of the motherhood issues, it is taking longer to get to know it and invest in it as I would have hoped. But little by little, our Spanish is improving with classes and practice, I am meeting some people in the NGO field, and we are getting around to see new places and gain insights into this place we call home.
So now that there is an overview, I will endeavor to keep some note of details in the coming days, weeks and months, so a better record is kept!